I have spoken often on this blog about walking the path. The path that God has for our lives. I think that more than anything that is an appropriate way to explain how I see this journey I am on. That we are all on.
Somehow though, I noticed that while time always continues to progress, spiritually I did not seem to be moving forward. I stagnated, I just seemed to be moving in circles. What finally was revealed to me though, was that was in a large part because of what I was doing, or not doing actually.
Like most people, I had filled myself with baggage. Items I was holding inside that brought me nothing but grief. A divorce, losses of friends, the list went on. I purposely allowed these things to remain, where they weighed me down like a boat anchor.
We all do that I think, to some extent or other, but I don’t think we realize the damage we do to ourselves by keeping hold on the things of the past that hurt us so much. You know what it is for you, just as I knew what it was for me.
With Gods help, finally I see that the only way forward sometimes is to let go. Yes, sounds very simple, but it can be the most difficult thing you have ever done. We want to hold onto these things. These memories, they have so much power over us. We have let them control us, for so long, they become apart of who we are, and we feel like if we let go, we will no longer be he same person. In some ways, that’s the point.
Now, I’m not saying stop thinking about Gramma, who might have passed. You know what deep inside is keeping you from growing into the person God needs to fulfill His will. You’ll know because whenever He speaks to you, it’s the things you’ll think about that stop you. Stop you from living like you should. Stop you from developing that deeper relationship with Him, because these things are in the way.
Sometimes to move forward, you have to let go.
And it doesn’t happen over night, or in a week, and might take a long time, depending on how deeply rooted into your spirit these things have become. Luckily for me, our God is patient. Through his word, and through a lot of prayer. With a lot of understanding, He showed me that I needed to stop torturing myself because of things that shouldn’t have power over me anymore. He showed me that the past is a history lesson, something to give me better judgment moving forward, but it’s not someplace I should be living.
Because that’s not living. That’s not what God has planned for me. He has so many good things, so many blessings, for me and for you. I just needed to finally drop the load of regrets off my back and step forward.
You can’t change the past, whatever happened, it’s over. If you have wronged someone, you can only ask forgiveness, if someone has wronged you, then you can forgive. Whatever it was, you can’t allow it to define you anymore.
This is the thing God has revealed to me, and I am very thankful to Him for opening my eyes, and my spirit to it! He has turned tears of pain into tears of joy as I finally let the shackles off of my spirit, and finally move forward in the way I was meant to.